It was when I finally held your hand that it dawned on me. I didn’t realized how long ago it was, until I finally felt your fingertips once more. You appeared from the dark, leaping so cheerfully and excited, while I stood there gazed, immobilized by the sight of a silhouette that had once been only a part of my dream – a dream which came true. It wasn’t long ago that you felt as though time had taken us back to dreamland. It wasn’t long ago that everything felt like fantasy. You were virtual, I was in limbo.
The days went by at different rates. Some days were long, some days didn’t even go noticed. And just as the long wait will finally come to an end, everything seems to have gone by so quickly. Everything was to be anticipated, except for that leap that caught me by surprise. It was the “Hi!”, it was the smile. It was the call that echoed back and forth.
You seemed to have had everything well thought of and planned, while all the wait I had been saving, simply vanished at that instant. I too had plans you know. But I know now that it boils down to whoever executes them better.
Surprise is probably the best description. But with that surprise also came the waiving of emotions. I didn’t hafve time to think, nor did I have time to feel. It was that moment where I stood stil, not knowing how to react, not knowing what to say, not knowing what to feel.
You smile and asked for a beer. I went in, waiting for experience to sink in. I walked back in as I shook my head, light and empty from the amazement with reality. And when I looked back, the light empty head stood further still. Now coming into a void,, I wonder whether you were really there. The senses fail where only experience can justify. I knew what I knew. You were there – and so you were. It didn’t dawn on me however, until I held you fingertips once more.
